Ghost Note

"The normal world has no room for exceptions and always quietly eliminates foreign objects. Anyone who is lacking is disposed of. So that’s why I need to be cured. Unless I’m cured, normal people will expurgate me. Finally I understand why my family had tried so hard to fix me. "
Sayaka Murata, Convenience Store Woman

In music, particularly jazz, a ghost note holds rhythmic value but is inaudible during performance. Its purpose is to create an undertone beneath the primary groove, subtly weaving a sense of 16th-note groove around a powerful backbeat or specific accent.

Listening to the voices of those who cry out for "correctness" and hearing the sound of hearts breaking, I continually tuned myself to be "normal" leading to days where my body ceased to move. During this time, I gazed as one fragile existence after another vanished from this world.

It is impossible to choose to be born into this world, but it is possible to choose to disappear from it.

What those who chose to disappear from this world have taken might have been like the final drop that causes a cup to overflow or the raindrop that wears away stone—minute yet inevitably leading to a breaking point.